Yes, it's been awhile. Almost a year in fact. I thought I'd given up on this blog, but there was something in me that kept calling me back. A little voice that, every once in awhile, would remind me that I started this blog for a reason and I need to continue. I have no recipe, no picture, just some thoughts that I felt like sharing. I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want to do with my life. I'm hitting that point in school where I need to make some kind of decision, and with a family that pressure is pretty heavy. So, I've been trying to focus on the things that I excel at and the things I'm passionate about and smoosh them together into a perfect, amazing, beautiful career for myself. You know, something that I'm just going to think of one day and say "Of course, this is what I'm meant to do. How have I not seen this before?" Well, I don't think it really works that way. I think it takes baby steps most of the time, and revelations only come to a lucky few...like my fiance...but I am not jealous. Oh no, this self-exploration will make me a better person in the long run. Right? Anyway, that's what I tell myself.
Okay then, to date, here are the things that I'm truly passionate about.
Food. Yes food. But not just any food. I am not passionate about McDonald's cheeseburgers, or even the finest dish from the finest restaurant in town. Although, I do like going out to eat and I do appreciate gourmet food, these things are not my passion. I am passionate about food that nourishes your body. I think about my meals in terms of vitamins and minerals, fats and carbs, fruits and vegetables. I think about what the body needs. What have I done today or what am I going to do today? How will food help me with this? Because our diet does so much more than most of us give it credit for. Since I've had my daughter my nutritional needs have just not been the same and I'd been having some problems in certain areas of my life (yes, I'm going to leave this vague). Someone recently suggested that I might need more essential fatty acids. Ding! Ding! Ding! The difference is amazing. No, eating more fish and nuts has not completely solved my problems, but it has made a distinct difference, and I think it's pretty amazing that a simple choice can have such a profound impact on how we feel and function.
Exercise is another one of my passions. Yoga specifically. I am not a fun person to be around if it's been too long since I last exercised. Strange, how this goes hand-in-hand with the whole food thing. Yes, I've thought about being a physical trainer, but I just don't think this is for me. The thought of being at the gym all day, everyday with sweaty, testosterone filled, grunting men, and yes it's mostly men, is just not appealing to me. And no, I'm not an exercise addict, I don't spend hours at the gym everyday. I'm just exercise dependent. It makes me a happier person, period. What more reason do I need, or does anyone need to make it apart of their lives?
Writing is also a passion of mine. Words have always just come naturally to me. Writing papers for school has never been an issue, and I am very thankful for this because writing a 10-page paper must be hell if you're not a writer.
So, what do I do with these things? That is the question I'm facing right now. I guess I start small. I continue with school in the best direction I know how and I continue this blog. I wait and see what happens, and hope that maybe someone else gets a kick out of reading my journey.